My Darling~~ I am always thinking of you. I constantly want to know what you are doing each day throughout the world. I am excited to be a part of your kingdom.
I am recalling over and over again with deep affection those times in the past when you courted me. How you were forever showing your love in little ways -- opening doors for me, making sure I was comfortable, telling me how beautiful you found me, how perfect I was in your eyes -- I am always giddy with anticipation of what you have for me next to show your love.
When we sit and talk together under the Lebanons, these times are always so special. Sharing my heart, intimately describing my love for you, expressing your beauty in ways that I see emanating from your eyes and how your facial expressions all reflect how much our love is common between us. Your thoughts with my thoughts are repeatedly taking my breath away.
But when we are so intimate, so close together, looking at each other in the eyes--those are the times that I remember the most. I saw beyond the present into a future that transformed all your present desires and needs into celestial territories of love and beauty. The beauty I saw in your eyes was beyond words. My heart was racing so fast as I realized what you and I had planned together forever.
You told me that I was not only yours, but my constant companion at all times. You told me how you yearned for the time when we would be together forever. How we could sit down anytime and just talk and talk about everything and anything. You made my heart so full that it was bursting at the seams. Not only because of your words, but how you spoke so tenderly with emotion that came from all that you held inside from the beginning.
As I sit here tonight, under the light of the stars, I recall all that we have done together. You have protected me and kept me safe, oh, so many times since we met. You have taken me on journeys that were almost unbelievable. You taught me to believe in myself. You encouraged me by telling me that you would always be there for me and would never leave me or do anything wrong against me.
Oh my lord, you are with me always. Even though the wedding supper is still in the future, let it be soon! I am preparing for your arrival. I have myself decked out, I am constantly exercising and keeping my lamp trimmed with a full reservoir of oil so I won't be caught short upon your return. My countenance and faithfulness bring my life a fullness that will please you when you see me. When you come for the wedding, I want to present myself to you worthy of what you have done for me. I want my beauty to overwhelm you.
I want my delicate perfume of fellowship with others overtake your senses. The Purity of your Words will flow out of my heart and mouth to speak with Truth how worthy and powerful and lovely you are. I want my robe of righteousness to reflect all that you have given me. I want my sandals be beautiful for all the paths I have taken to share your love to others. In all ways do I yearn to please you when you come for me.
I want to touch your senses in a subtle way. Close your eyes and smile with extreme joy as you realize the truth of my love towards you. I can only imagine what your thoughts will be and how close they will be to my thoughts. I desire that your thoughts and my thoughts will be as one.
I want to thank you, my Lord, for providing me with a part of yourself whether you are here with me, physically, or not. By the Spirit, you are constantly with me, to comfort me, lead me to right decisions and even speak your will through my mouth and heart. What a special way you take care of me. I am truly loved.
When I recall just a small part of what you did for me, I realize not only how special to me you are, but how special I am to you. You have given your all for me so much more than any earthly person is willing or able to do. All I know, Lord, you are worthy of my love. You have blessed me over and over again and I am constantly wanting to bless you back by blessing others.
One of the best things I have is your letters. They teach me and tell me of you and also those who have loved you throughout the ages. I take pleasure in sharing your writings with others. What other bride can boast that you gave a complete book of instructions and commands that you desire of me. I like to call it The Brides Book of Instructions written by My Savior.
In your book, you speak of the church who are my constant companions. We fellowship together, we pray together, constantly encouraging and sharing our love for each other. Even meeting each other's needs. Laying on of hands and using your name to heal each other is our supreme desire to fulfill your commandments. Our love for each other is Your love, our desires for each other are your desires. And in all things, we desire to love and share and pray with those who are not yet a part of this glorious relationship with you.
What a mystery, but what a reality that surpasses all that I could ever imagine. Hurry, Lord. I want to be with you. I want to live with you forever. I pray that your spirit will comfort me so my conduct and love to others while I am waiting will bring you glory and honor and power for truly your name is above all others. Thank you for giving me your name,
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